Writing Territories

Failure

Bad grammar
Making many wonderful friends
My purpose in life
Helplessness
To make a difference in the world
Popping the knuckles in my toes
Opening up to people
Kindle (now), Blue Bear (teddy bear, then)
Trying to do everything right

Some people are scared of the Boogieman, and some are afraid of death, but the one thing that I fear the most is failure. Any kind of failure, be it in my school work, social life, or religion, frightens me to death. I think the thing that scares me the most is the fact that I don't know if it's going to happen, but there is always the possibility that it could. It's not that I don't have confidence in myself and believe that I have what it takes to succeed, but rather that something could always happen to change my personal plan. Since it's pretty much all I think about from August to May, I'll give the example of my school work. I've never earned anything less than an "A" in a class since 4th grade, and I take great pride in that. Because of this track record, I am very confident that I can continue getting these grades throughout high school. But there is always the possibility of failure (with the high standards I've set for myself, getting a "B" would pretty much be a failure for me. I know most people would disagree with this, but that's how I personally feel and I can't help it). In one of my classes, I currently have a very high "B". There's plenty of time left in this semester and I believe that I will be able to bring it up to an "A", but there's always the possibility that I could bomb a test or forget a huge assignment. So, for the rest of the semester, I will be stressed out because of that one grade and I will be in fear of getting a "B". This is just one example of my fear of failure, but hopefully you can get a sense of what I mean.